it has been a while since i have been on here but it has been 7 months since we lost our little one now. the holidays have just passed and i must say those were some very hard times. with this many months that have passed all i still want is for people to try to understand what we are going through. these passed months have been filled with tears, anger, broken hearts and at times even shots of hate but those go away after a few minutes. at time all i wish for is understanding for the pain my husband and i are going through. its hard when you dont get any understanding from your loved ones like uncles, aunts, cousins and so forth. as the advice we have recieved from others we are trying to take it one day at a time and just be there for each other. i miss my little one like crazy and it is hard every day to have to see babies all around because all it does is make me think of him. im glad we moved to kingsville where alvarito is buried because i can basically go everyday if i wanted to and go see him. for angel parents that is the best thing possible. one thing that has made things easy on me is i have found a lot of friends on facebook who i talk to almost everyday and if it wasnt for my fellow blm's i dont know where i would be right now. they get every feeling, every tear, every ache, just everything when it comes to what we are going through. i love them all!!! as odd as it is i am greatful my little angel brought them to me. it was like he knew i needed some friends and some support of that kind and he gave me them. well im at work and i need to cut it short now. now i really need to keep up with this blog since i now know a lot of my blm friends have a blog as well. till next time!!!